Having read NordlandDrake's freewriting, I must say it's not doing him any favors.
NordlandDrake, I think you may be served best right now by not trying to write like yourself but instead trying to write like one of your favorite authors. Get a short story in mind and write it down like they would write it. After each half page or so, look at it and ask yourself, "Is this how Favorite Writer would have written this half page?" If not, revise it until it is.
The problem with your writing right now is that it is an unreadable confusing mess. If you ever want your writing to be enjoyed by someone other than yourself, you have to, to a certain extent, conform to what is expected by people who are used to reading coherent texts. Once you get decent at mimicking the coherent writing of your favorite authors, you can add back in your own personal voice, but coherency is the first thing you need to master before you move on.
My wife says that if you're more comfortable listening to audiobooks than reading printed books, you may want to write that way as well: just dictate your stories into a recorder. I'm not sure that's a good idea because I think you may already be writing like that—you write down the voices you hear in your head and it already sounds good to you. But there may be some merit to the idea. Dictate a story in the style of a favorite audiobook of yours, and after two minutes play it back and if it doesn't match the style of the professional book, erase it and start over until it does.
Of course...I'm not saying you can easily make something as good as a professional series you enjoy. But you if you can identify what's missing in your own work, in direct comparison, and focus on those issues, you may be able to improve.