Or, stacer has problems conversing at parties, especially with particular people.
So, I was at this party tonight, and having a good time, talking to lots of people, etc. I usually do pretty well at parties. Except...
Except, of course, when there's someone in particular I want to get to know better and I work myself up into a huge fear of even talking to him. Plus, this particular one tends to be a quiet sort. So when I first got there he was pretty happy to see me, and we talked for a little while, but after a while there was this awkward silence in which I didn't know what to say next, and of course instead of pulling a standard "how's the job going?" or "how was the pinewood derby today?" or something normal, I talked about how his roommate gave me a ride home the night before and I was right about something that I talked to him about earlier, that there was a southern route between his house and mine. Nonsense stuff, and not the interesting sort. Â
And then later tonight, we were walking along and his roommate kept running into things, including a fire hydrant. Which made me think of the girl I tutor, whose friend recently died in a car accident when they ran into a fire hydrant. I may be a good print editor, but the one on my mouth needs help. From my brain to my mouth, that's what happened. Total mood killer, everyone staring at me thinking, "What brought that up?"
Argh. Not a total waste. We were all really tired, so perhaps he was thinking more about how tired he was than how dumb I am. He's going to host a Settlers night with me so that I can learn to play. (I've been wanting to for a couple years but never got the chance.) Does this make me more of a timewaster than before? Â
