Yes, and no. It's...complicated, to say the least.
I miss everyone in Utah. I'm going to be missing Tuesday Night Group tonight. Luckily, I think a friend and I are going to see Memoirs of a Geisha tonight. That ought to put things in perspective.
And I won't be sitting at home missing all of you.
Right now I'm looking for a job. It's a bit frustrating, but that's life. I went to the Singles Ward on Sunday, and that was good, because I was feeling very lonely last week. I ran into some old friends and realized that there are still some cool people here. So I think I'll be alright--I won't have to spend my four months here in solitude.
My parents can be frustrating, and they can also be great. We're working on things. The depression and chronic fatigue is hard on all of us. They don't always understand what I am going through. But I know they love me and want what's best for me, so as long as I keep communicating with them and being honest to myself, we'll work through it. Also, I'll be seeing some new doctors soon and perhaps trying a new medication. I've shied away from medication because it tends to make me more sick, but there may be one out there that works for me, so I just have to keep trying them, I guess. I'm kind of at the point that I am willing to try anything if it can help me stabilize and be myself again.
So...if you ever have an uncontrollable urge to travel to California and visit me, you will surely be welcome. And that's true for any of my TWG friends! California is nice. California is fun. Chimera is entertaining. Come, come, come!
