So, I've applied to the English MA program at BYU for the third year running. They've already rejected me twice, but I haven't felt right about leaving the area yet, and they have a good program for writing young adult fiction, so I keep applying.
I wasn't expecting to hear from them until the end of the month, but I got an email yesterday saying that while they've decided not to admit me, they've selected me as their third alternate.
They issue acceptance letters assuming that five people will turn them down. For every person above those five who turns them down, one alternate will get in. So essentially, eight out of thirty-five accepted applicants have to turn them down in order for me to be admitted.
What's more, I won't get final word on whether or not I'm accepted until the END OF MAY. I don't think ANYONE's letters have even been mailed yet. Ouch.
I feel like I've dropped into one of my novels. Or worse--one of someone else's novels, where everything is being set up for a dramatic climax, and I have no control over the outcome.
Jeez. At least it wasn't an outright rejection, although that might have been kinder than stringing me along for two months and *then* rejecting me.
*Fish takes a deep breath
Oh, the drama.