You are much to harsh on yourself there Nic. The only reason why you show your rolls is becuase you made a few of our players show you their rolls and you thought it would be fair. They only reason why siad player was pissed off at the rolls that were made was due to the fact that it was the second session of what was going to turn out to be a sweet campaign, and ended before it really got started. Quite frankly if that doesn't annoy any player to be killed off (along with the rest of the players) right at the start then maybe they should just go to video games where there is way more action to fill their ADHD minds. My point here is that you being the rules laywer that we all have come to know and love, have a hard time fudging the rolls even when you don't show us. Your just too ... principled to do something like that. You know how frustrating it is to only here the first chapter of a story to get you going and then it being taken away and you'll never get to see the outcome. With that said, you did the right thing as far as you were concerened and that is all that matters. As far as the player killer thing goes, well, you do take a satanic enjoyment in it, but usually not so far as to ruin an entire campaign
In the end it was a bad roll (the botch) and with only two players that makes it much harder for you to help keep us alive. In the end it will allow us to grow as players and continue to challenge us and you.
I cry if I want too since it was my party:P